Farewell, goodbye, amen.

[raybear]

I was standing in Slim's office, filing some case notes when I suddenly felt really light headed and I noticed my breathing was extremely shallow. I stopped and took a deep breath, and my lungs hurt, which made me think I had been barely breathing for several minutes, hence the light-headedness. And it wasn't a panic attack -- it was more that feeling of being 13 and standing in line to ride a loop-de-loop rollercoaster for the first time. I realized it's probably because I was moments away from finishing my last task.

Granted, I didn't get to one thing on my to-do list -- I decided to leave it behind for an intern to complete and not worry about it. Oh, and I still have my final wall of pictures to take down.

I was going through the random items on my desktop, mostly throwing away the collection of receipts and post-it notes that gathered around my keyboard and computer. Behind the monitor was a box of my business cards, about 90% full. I sat there, hovering over the recycling bin, sometimes taking a few out to save, then putting them back, then taking them out. I suddenly said to myself "why are you holding on? what's the purpose?" So pitched them all. I don't need them. I don't need cards that say I'm the legal assistant at Lambda Legal because I'm not. I don't need reminders of my life as the legal assistant at Lambda Legal because I'll remember.

But I saved the box. At least to transfer my buddha figurines home.

On my last day I arrived early and I'm leaving early. I could say it is not soon enough, but it is what it is.

See you on the other side.

Comments

Yeah, Bay Bee!

[penpusher.livejournal.com]

I meant to mention this in your last post, but this whole story makes me very happy! Hooray for your Great Escape!

congrats!

[keetbabe.livejournal.com]

on taking the big jump! i'm sure you'll be pleased you did!

good luck in la-la-la-la-land.

:)

[justshannon.livejournal.com]

congrats on making it though the last few weeks. look forward to meeting you soon!

[katemosey.livejournal.com]

Can't believe you're moving to L.A. --

If you:
1.) get botox
2.) quit your job to become an actor
3.) start using self-tanner and flexing at your reflection in shop mirrors
4.) buy a pair of Uggs

I will personally fly out there and kick you hard ... in the knees, perhaps the ass.
;)

[raybear.livejournal.com]

don't worry, i'm NOT moving to l.a. i just go there twice a year for grad school to visit for two weeks. i know it's weird because my school's in los angeles and i live in chicago, but it's sort of an alternative hippie type program that's more of an independent study and less of a correspondence course.

i already have Uggs. wait, no i don't, but i already have quit my job to become a porn star. or rather, i wish.

[hipflickchick.livejournal.com]

oh God I SO want to see YOU in Uggs.! Porn or no.
maybe for your big Bday!

[valenciamiel.livejournal.com]

I've been reading about your preparations to leave work and all the time wondering how it must feel. I really don't like my job and right now don't have the courage - or the right time phase or financial situation - to leave. I am kind of wowed out by the courage you have and I think it's fabulous. Perhaps a day for pink shirt?