Darling, let's get deeply into debt!

I'm getting ready to call Damon and pull a Miss Cleo. I'm extremely close to making another large purchase which could conceivably be very stupid (by racking up more debt), but for the most part is not without merit.

[And besides, I could then sell my current turntables to some lucky livejournaler who's looking for a nice cheap way to play their beloved vinyl. It plugs into the AUX outlet of any home stereo! I might even deliver it depending on where you live!]

So anyway, um, yeah. Early xmas gift to myself? I suppose so. Am I just postponing and pushing back the possibility of getting top surgery while still in my 20's? Will I be taking needed steps forward in my DJ/producer career? I think so. Should I wait until I have more concrete options in acquiring more paying gigs?

Here's what I would get:
- Two (2) top of the line cream of the crop turntables. Magical. I can juggle beats! Mix previously incompatible songs! Play records backwards at any speed! I can compute BPM, change the tempo and not the pitch, and much much more.
- Two (2) new cartridges (i.e. needles) which will compliment my tables in their technology and not burn my records
- Two (2) road cases to protect my precious precious turntables and enable them to travel to gigs which would hopefully pay me.

In exchange, I would have approximately $1200 more debt. At this time I will not divulge what my current debt, or my current salary and rent, but if for some reason your a budget and money wizard who would like to know such things and aid me in my decision, leave a comment and maybe I'll e-mail you. Or feel free to just chime in.

In the meantime, I'll be consulting the Tarot. I feel compelled to either make the purchase TODAY or in a few months. And I think I'm leaning towards the former.

One last thing, if I buy these decks, from now on when someone asks what I do, I will first say I'm a DJ.

When will I learn?

So I forgot to call the tarot person back on Friday and did it today. She already booked all her folks for the Cultural Event party. So no tarot readings for me this year. I'm pretty bummed to be out the $150, but it's my own fault for being a slowpoke. I've experienced this lesson before, yet I haven't quite learned it yet.

The phone call with Damon was productive, though I'm still not clear. Two reversed cards. My last reading I got 8 our of 11 reversed cards. I have some major blocked energy it appears on a lot of fronts.

Maybe I need to channel myself elsewhere. But it's such this chickn and egg dilemma. Do I focus on developing skills and talent so I can sell myself easier, or do I focus on selling myself and landing gigs, so I can afford to develop my skills and talent.

Perhaps I just need to sell more books on Amazon. And/or get a part-time job. The latter I have seriously considered. Though I wish my part-time job was being a DJ at a club.

Argh. It's a never ending circle. Why can't I just get off my ass and make it happen? Maybe I should stop talking about my parents so gddamn much in therapy and talk about this.